"It is a curious thing, the death of a loved one. We all know that our time in this world is limited, and that eventually all of us will end up underneath some sheet, never to wake up. And yet it is always a surprise when it happens to someone we know. It is like walking up the stairs to ...
its all a blur, two hours of sleep and im restless, its hot and humid, the nice gent that my mother knows is making all the arrangements, k cannot wait for tjis to emd. im not a social creature, talking to more people than necessary is hard. entertaining them, consoling them, feeding them, i natter on and managed.nothing.my sister in ...
06 April 201601:06Ive lost count of the number of times o told the story. Of how i found him, the sinking feeling that..thats it. My head hurts. My mother hysterical, the neighbour boy determined and me, trying to deal with the feeling of nothing. i felt nothing.Then the hospital bureaucracy, i was lead, they told me what had happened, what ...
Grief is a funny thing…that would have been a good opener, but that would be a lie. There is nothing funny about grief, it hits you like a freight train while you in the middle of a crowd. You’re left with watering eyes, a headache and the burning thought that you’re going to breakdown again. Words fail me, I’ve ...
//could lean too much towards Christianity, but its not about A religion, more like the concept of it.// Religion, do we need it? or do we want it? Do you believe in an omnipotent being(s) that looks over you and or guides you in every moment of your life? This is what I call the choosing. Choose Some of ...
It hits you between the eyes when you are alone making the bed. You realize that the last few years you’ve been doing that degree, working dawn to dusk, browsing for potential master programs, all to please the others, of course you don’t mind. You celebrate their happiness, their achievements, you celebrate when they congratulate you on your achievements. ...
I watch as I wait for that girl to come, the coffee shop seems quiet in the dusk, the customers speak in low murmurs, Sunday night, the people sipping one last drink before they start another week again. I finish my coffee as I look at the sun descending into a brick laden horizon, there would be no stars out ...
To find yourself what would you do. Personally I don’t care, today and for two weeks im determined to be selfish, I’m off to find myself, in the hundreds of tea cups in the future and in rainy days and continues emails threads. I do not remember when I lost myself, when I started living for others, I think I ...
Have you known the cold as I have It is not the chill in the air, nor is it the lack of a warm blanket. It is the feeling of knowing you will be alone the certainty of your existence. Like the confidence that the shadows in the dark show you. like the feeling of knowing no one will ...
So life has been a lot of ups and downs, the ups were up, but the downs were way, way down. My job is okay, but for the sake of truth and to get everything off my chest, it is killing me. I’d rather not talk about it, not too much. I’m already living this, I’d rather not bring ...
…Is that when you need one, there is no one there. You’re expected to be made of steel and adamantium, never breaking, stronger than a mountain and a comfort to all. Sometimes all we need is a hug and someone telling us all will be okay, that it will get better, that life is not always this grey. It is ...
I just get so frustrated when people don’t do their work as they are supposed to, all of our lives are interconnected. Only if the worker ants do their jobs, can the queen have babies and the birds eat the baby ant thing, the cat eat the bird, the cat being tragically ending up in a curry pot somewhere ...
So I’ve been watching True Blood these days, on account of most of my shows being on hiatus for the Olympics and or out for the season.Its not always vampires and surprise smexing, I do like the plot of TB, also I lurve the way that Bill says SOOKEH <3Also Alexander Skarsgard does and absolutely goofy yet terrifying evil Eric. ...
It has been quite a bloody while since I wrote to everyone. Well so far, I got myself a job. 2 weeks +and going good, I like it here, the crowd is nice and the work, somewhat okay in my realm of shit-to-okay grading. So far this seems good and I’ve started writing again, looks like im sort of back ...
Last month was a rollercoaster of ups and downs, when I say ups and downs, there were the highs and the lowest of lows. So I finally attended my graduation, got on the podium, received my roll of paper and smiled for the cameras. I felt sort of numb during and after that for a while, my friends were ...
Too tired to write it all down, I’ll just list it here Quit working on campus got that other job Training for this is crazy not going to speak of it so don’t ask I fucking hate the cliches, WTF are you writing cliches my back hurts bought a load of make up in love with liquid liner peace out bitches also charlie <3
So I died, wait no, I got through an extremely boring graduation, its been a very very boring and stressful week, its been strange to say the least. I’ve been catching up with all the Red Vs. Blue episodes. And for now that is all. I am trying to remember what I am supposed to say here, oh yeah I’m ...
Life has been a bit rocky, but who doesn’t go through those times. These are these people sometimes who are so low, that when you thought they cant get any worse, he hit a whole new level. I don’t want to speak of such awful things, on a side note my work times have changed, from 8.30 to 5.30pm, ...
I’ve lamented the boredom of last week and this week, my schedule is totally filled up. Not that I am complaining. Also they extend my contract for another month till I find a job more fitting. So yesterday was payday, I went and bought shoes, yes, shoes, a pair of flats that reminded my sister and I of the ...
