Behind every bad person lies a good one. Nobody starts horrible. At the point of coming into this world, everyone has a clean slate.However, not everyone is born into the same circumstances. And sometimes this makes all the difference.The exuberantly angry man stared out at the snow covered landscape, his breath clearing the misted window pane momentarily with every ragged ...
We are 4 days into my favourite month of the year. December is usually full of things happening. It holds possibilities, a buzz, the promise of letting you do everything you've been waiting to do. It makes you a bit reckless, because you know it's your last time to do that thing you've been wanting to do all year.I've accomplished ...
More than 4 months after the last post, and a realisation later, I return to say goodbye.(no I'm not off-ing myself! :-D)I have blogged consistently for two years. It started out as an outlet for the tumultuous feelings I was going through at the time, and ended up as my solace, my ally, my safe place. I reached out into ...
I'm this close to getting my heart broken, and yet I am able to get out of bed. That sinking feeling is very much present, and yet I function. Sure I daze out now and then but I get my work done. I come home and go get my workout.Is it hope?Whatever it is, this is nowhere as crippling as ...
The bad day girlhas her heart in her feet,and she trips on it constantlyeven though she knows it's there.She holds her mind in her handSqueezing it and feelingit ooze out through between her fingersand somewhere inside her, it hurts.Her stomach's in her throat,Comfortable thereNot coming out,not going back down.And of course, her smile is caught behind her teethbarely there,rubbing against ...
What does normalcy mean anyway?I was lying in bed this morning, thinking of a conversation I had with him last night. He was venting about a bad day at work, and then drew a line on the table saying that life is usually like that, punctuated by little incidents (his finger went above the line a few times) and that ...
So in case you hadn't already figured it out by my recent posts, this week was downright sucky. Wait, let me capitalise it for effect.SUCKY.Ah well, I guess it could be worse.Don't you hate it when people say that in the form of consolation? But perhaps there is a reason for that. Possibly the fact that it's true!I think it's ...
My 2nd attempt at the Indie Ink Writing Challenge! This time my prompt (by Barb) was:Write a love letter to yourself from the viewpoint of the opposite gender.Hey you, I'm not great at passionate declarations, and right now I'm rather stumped for words. Bad enough as it is, it gets worse when I'm happy.You make me happy.I'm not sure what ...
So....he asked me out :-)This is what I know. I'm on my turf now. With a good guy who is worth the risk of falling for.Guess he had the jackhammer after all!Title from song: You are a tourist- Death Cab for Cutie
When I wake up in the morning thinking I have to write a post about happiness, dating, and love and then sit here and hear a song on the radio and remember him, and feel my heart just pause and bask in....something (happiness?), I know I'm in trouble.Oh fuck.Title from song: Price tag- Jessie J ft. B.O.B
I think I attract sadness. But as much as people laugh and joke and go crazy with me, they also tell me the sad stories they wouldn't tell anyone else. And this is not just friends I'm talking about. It's almost anyone I talk to. Problems, childhood traumas, relationship issues, workplace politics, dreams that haven't come true....you name it, I've ...
You know you've got it good when with each passing month the butterflies flutter more.When he doesn't do cartwheels for you at the start, but is increasingly there for you so that you can literally feel your bond deepening. When he is slow to your fast, calm to your crazy, and simmering to your red hot.When he knows the scary ...
Some people tell you that to be treated like an adult, you first need to act like one. Those people have obviously never met my parents. What is actually a pretty awesome relationship is at times frustrating, claustrophobic, and just saddening. At the root of most of my problems, lies my dependence on their approval and happiness.Lately I have been ...
I woke up this morning, and was going over some thought in my head. About how confused I am. About the hours I spend doubting our relationship, and then have it all melt away the minute I hear his voice. How I go to bed calmed by the one sentence I heard him say through my sleepy haze. And how ...
The need to cry.Recurring bad dreams.Anxiety about how things will turn out.Sometimes I'm just such a bloody mess. Sigh.Once I told a fellow blogger that I blog too, and he was trying to guess which one my blog was. One of his guesses were "is it some emo, angsty blog?", and as I smiled my mind agreed.Emo, angsty people write ...
We've been arguing alot lately. I am intense, he is balanced. I worry that I am suffocating him, he worries...about me worrying. And I realise that at the heart of every argument is our need to want to make the other person happy.That's probably a lifelong process.But I hope we find our middle ground soon.Title from song: Higher ground- UB40
Being in love is one of the most scariest feelings ever.Or maybe it's the state beyond that.When you know your life is betterbecause of someone's presence in it,and you want it to last.(Please last).Title from song: We found love-Calvin Harris feat. Rihanna
So I got kicked out of the Indie Ink Writing Challenge for forfeiting twice (Write a humorous ghost story?! C'mon. All I could do looking at that prompt was yawn. No bitterness here btw ;-P), and just when I was wondering what I could do in the form of writing I remembered my thoroughly neglected 30 days of Truth challenge. ...
Work is boring, so I took the day off today. I seem to take a day off almost every week. If there's one person who takes full advantage of her leave, it's (you guessed it) me.My mother gets a bit worried whenever I do though. It makes me feel worse- I get paranoid, wondering how I'll be with a household ...