More than 4 months after the last post, and a realisation later, I return to say goodbye.(no I'm not off-ing myself! :-D)I have blogged consistently for two years. It started out as an outlet for the tumultuous feelings I was going through at the time, and ended up as my solace, my ally, my safe place. I reached out into ...
Being in love is one of the most scariest feelings ever.Or maybe it's the state beyond that.When you know your life is betterbecause of someone's presence in it,and you want it to last.(Please last).Title from song: We found love-Calvin Harris feat. Rihanna
We are 4 days into my favourite month of the year. December is usually full of things happening. It holds possibilities, a buzz, the promise of letting you do everything you've been waiting to do. It makes you a bit reckless, because you know it's your last time to do that thing you've been wanting to do all year.I've accomplished ...
I woke up this morning, and was going over some thought in my head. About how confused I am. About the hours I spend doubting our relationship, and then have it all melt away the minute I hear his voice. How I go to bed calmed by the one sentence I heard him say through my sleepy haze. And how ...
I'm this close to getting my heart broken, and yet I am able to get out of bed. That sinking feeling is very much present, and yet I function. Sure I daze out now and then but I get my work done. I come home and go get my workout.Is it hope?Whatever it is, this is nowhere as crippling as ...
The need to cry.Recurring bad dreams.Anxiety about how things will turn out.Sometimes I'm just such a bloody mess. Sigh.Once I told a fellow blogger that I blog too, and he was trying to guess which one my blog was. One of his guesses were "is it some emo, angsty blog?", and as I smiled my mind agreed.Emo, angsty people write ...
Behind every bad person lies a good one. Nobody starts horrible. At the point of coming into this world, everyone has a clean slate.However, not everyone is born into the same circumstances. And sometimes this makes all the difference.The exuberantly angry man stared out at the snow covered landscape, his breath clearing the misted window pane momentarily with every ragged ...
We've been arguing alot lately. I am intense, he is balanced. I worry that I am suffocating him, he worries...about me worrying. And I realise that at the heart of every argument is our need to want to make the other person happy.That's probably a lifelong process.But I hope we find our middle ground soon.Title from song: Higher ground- UB40
Some people tell you that to be treated like an adult, you first need to act like one. Those people have obviously never met my parents. What is actually a pretty awesome relationship is at times frustrating, claustrophobic, and just saddening. At the root of most of my problems, lies my dependence on their approval and happiness.Lately I have been ...
I think I attract sadness. But as much as people laugh and joke and go crazy with me, they also tell me the sad stories they wouldn't tell anyone else. And this is not just friends I'm talking about. It's almost anyone I talk to. Problems, childhood traumas, relationship issues, workplace politics, dreams that haven't come true....you name it, I've ...
Hearts, flowers and smiley faces- that's what you've reduced me to.I open the door, and stand in my balcony, stretching with my eyes closed, blinded by the sunlight, warmth washing over me, and smiling into the darkness (my eyes are closed, remember).I know now, for sure. I am positive.I am all in.The heart's property of always bobbing up to the ...
Sometimes I feel as strong as glass. That is, not very strong at all. I feel extremely fragile, and it hurts to breathe. Maybe I'm just dramatizing a bad day (week), but I've always been good at writing exactly how I feel. And right now, I'm glass.Here's something from a poet I like:You with the Crack Running Through You By ...
You know you've got it good when with each passing month the butterflies flutter more.When he doesn't do cartwheels for you at the start, but is increasingly there for you so that you can literally feel your bond deepening. When he is slow to your fast, calm to your crazy, and simmering to your red hot.When he knows the scary ...
I've got writers block. During a phase in my life where I sit and wonder why I'm not following a passion, and then wondering what exactly that passion is, I neglect the very thing I used to enjoy. I think my perspective has changed- from embracing my emotions to wanting badly to put them behind me. I've been so emotional ...
So I got kicked out of the Indie Ink Writing Challenge for forfeiting twice (Write a humorous ghost story?! C'mon. All I could do looking at that prompt was yawn. No bitterness here btw ;-P), and just when I was wondering what I could do in the form of writing I remembered my thoroughly neglected 30 days of Truth challenge. ...
Work is boring, so I took the day off today. I seem to take a day off almost every week. If there's one person who takes full advantage of her leave, it's (you guessed it) me.My mother gets a bit worried whenever I do though. It makes me feel worse- I get paranoid, wondering how I'll be with a household ...
What does normalcy mean anyway?I was lying in bed this morning, thinking of a conversation I had with him last night. He was venting about a bad day at work, and then drew a line on the table saying that life is usually like that, punctuated by little incidents (his finger went above the line a few times) and that ...
On days when I wake up feeling....well nothing much, I look back and wonder why I spend so many days waking up with the world on my shoulders. The buzzing mind in the morning is something I am seeing as a personality trait (maybe it's coz I'm a morning person, and staying in bed till past 7am is going against ...
I slept too hard, and am up too early. The weather's lovely, the aftermath of last night's stormy rain combined with a cool breeze, framed by my flowery curtains and bamboo blinds. I'm wearing a new pretty top, a present, it makes me feel girly and sweet. Rubber thongs on my feet to add that me-factor- never wanting to be ...