September 1, 2017 Last night in the midst of a cousin’s 30th Birthday party, in a spectacular leap to be a part of the banter Achchi proclaimed that Seeya was younger than her. The stories that were unveiled as the night went on were fascinating; Murder, may ham, the antics of a grandfather I never […]
I’m so sorry. Why do we even bother with the words? Why is it that we cannot stop ourselves before we have to say those words? This morning I said 2 things that I’m KNOW I didn’t mean. And yet I said them, and as I said them I hurt two precious hearts. But my [...]
September 6th, 2018 Something about Bangkok feels familiar. You’d ask me why I decided to move to a city that I’ve never been to before. From what I understand, the normal process is to visit a place, fall in love, then decide to move. It’s never quite been that way for me. Most of the […]
Sometimes as I walk down the street in stark daylight, I feel him take my hand, thread his fingers through mine. I’m afraid to look because I know he won’t be there. He leans against the wall beside me when I am outside breathing in the cold of autumn and the heat of a cigarette. […]
It all started with… well, it all started someplace else, but I’m going to skip all the tumult, confusion, discomfort, and just tell you that I eventually decided to move to Bangkok. I’ve been blessed my whole life with a kind of good fortune. Most of the time I feel this “good fortune” as a […]
Squeamish beware of this post. There are yucky pictures. Disease as a word is terrible. It’s harsh, and worrisome, and icky. It makes one think of bad smells, bad tastes, pain, it sounds like an insect singing as it buzzes around your head “Dizeeeeeeez.” The “i” is Silent. ha! (Tangent- i have a post about [...]
Liefde, First of all you should know, I don’t remember much of what happened or what I said. But the one truth is that I am in love with you. I’ve been falling steadily over the past few months. Honestly, it is only the guilty feeling in my heart that makes me think I kissed […]
Social media is wonderful because it keeps you aware of news and opinions and mainstream everything. Facebook often informs me of natural disasters a well as pop culture disasters (The Kimye music video, “Friday Friday” song are some prime examples of things I wish I’d never seen.) Then once in awhile in addition to the […]
In real life, if Chris Kyle and I met in the street we probably wouldn’t be immediate friends. We come from entirely different worlds, and to be quite honest, he comes from a world that i had little time for; A world i don’t understand, and can’t relate to; a world as foreign to me […]
A dense fog rises off of the freshly fallen snow, and envelopes the house. Only shadows that stand still, while the mist moves ghostlike with the wind, is evidence of a world beyond. I stepped outside of the house and started walking into the fog. Soon i was far enough that i could no longer […]
It was magnificent. Easy to read, stimulating and it positively ignited my curiosity. I couldn’t stop turning the pages. and then… It felt like the writer got lazy. The ending was a let down. It wasn’t the actual ending but the chapter that led to it. It was like there were a couple of chapters […]
On May 1st, I took a trip to Cuba under the people to people license through the Grand Circle Foundation. I’m honored to have been mistaken, over and over again, for a “Naturales Cubana” because the people are the most open, most curious, most friendly i’ve ever met in my life. If for no other […]
One word has been coming up over and over again in the last few weeks that I need to think about. Hope. I wonder sometimes if there is a difference between Hope and Wishful-Thinking. Women have a way of over-thinking everything; When someone sends me a message I don’t just read it. I read it, [...]
As we go on living our lives, going through each day into the next, something happens that stops you in your tracks, spins you around and pushes you off the ledge and you’re falling, falling, falling into despair, sadness, hopelessness, and defeat. It’s dark down there, when you think your whole world has ended. There [...]
Even as she reaches her hand out she knows he is gone. She watches him sink into the dark abyss; a cold sick feeling grows in the pit of her stomach. Why didn’t she offer to take turns? Why didn’t she make room for them both? Survivors Guilt: the true story of Jack and Rose. Filed under: "Sri […]
Originally posted on The Fight In Me:Recently I’ve been noticed for my laugh. It’s loud, and care free. It’s got a life of its own sometimes, and gets away from me. It’s wild and unprecedented; Its even inappropriate when it comes out when i’m nervous. My laugh finds so many things amusing, and finding…
Today when i stepped out of the office it was snowing. Not the heavy wet snow of the past few days, but a light snow flurry. People with frowns, with their collars turned up and their hats worn low cursed the cold and the ground hog for his false predictions. Wednesday marked the arrival of [...]
Just as the cracks start healing, you knowingly, or unknowingly break my heart along the fault lines. (It’s”My Fault”… lines.) Over and over again- a different name, a different girl attached to each hammer- but it comes crashing down just the same. And I stand there, holding out my bleeding heart waiting for you to […]
I walked into the house after a long day at work, and worrying about my heart and my heart’s man. I was greeted by the sight of my mother, beaming and blooming at the mere sight of me. I could see the love filling her up, and when she held me I felt safe as […]
This past week was the holiest of Buddhist holidays. Vesak is the night of Birth, Englightenment and Death of Lord Buddha and falls each year on the Full moon day in May. This year it fell on the 4th. Sri Lanka is lit in bright, colourful lanterns; the towns and villages are crowded with “pilgrims” going around […]