Bound by uncertainties… It’s not a nice feeling… Sometimes I think I’ll take it as it comes, sometimes I lose faith and strength… I try to keep myself occupied by cooking.. but who am I kidding… Every day I try looking for different avenues, I try to walk away from things that hurt, I try to think only of myself… ...
Somewhere at the back of my head, I knew this would happen. Just didn’t think it would happen so fast…. It’s just going to be hell from now onwards… The one place I used to lose myself, office, is never going to be the same again…. It’ll only get worse….
To want what cannot be had, must be one of the greatest pains of all time… If only the mind could be controlled… Attempt#6 to sleep and not think is in progress.
In 2004 when the tsunami hit, my dad gave away half his salary for aid, to help those who really needed help. He was selfless. Thankfully we did learn to do things like that from him. Greatest example. Amazing human being.
It’s one of those unsettling days where I slept a lot, feel sick, and want someone to talk to… I kept thinking of my dad.. dreamt of my grandfather… Remembered everything amazing about the grandmas.. Down the line everyone just left… Just left.. The house that one had a load of people from grandparents to dogs to maids to parents ...
A cup of coffee A good TV series Cold weather A beautiful dog And I woke up to a voice I love to hear, and of course my ringtone going ‘work work work by Rihanna’ coz that’s how my weekdays are It’s a lovely Saturday morning.
Somebody said you got a new friend Does she love you better than I can? And there’s a big black sky over my town I know where you’re at, I bet she’s around And yeah, I know it’s stupid But I just gotta see it for myself I’m in the corner, watching you kiss her, oh oohh And I’m right ...
As I walk away from work, all I want to do is leave behind the unfairness,. the lies, the unnecessary stress, the backstabbing and tale telling, the unhappiness and everything else that’s unpleasant… Yet it clouds my mind and judgement and my head hurts as if it would explode any minute … I was told that I was too sweet ...
To tell me not to think too much… To tell me I don’t have to be perfect all the time… To teach me Maths till midnight coz I wasn’t as good as he was in Math… To tell me to pray every evening… To take me everywhere… To make me happy and take care of me… But today I struggle ...
Today my mum gave me the last two gold rings my dad gave me. Felt very emotional when I took them.. One was from the Bangkok airport coz I couldn’t take my eyes off it.. The other one had a heart and American diamond, that was for Valentine’s day coz I said I didn’t have anyone… :( And now I don’t have him….
Nothing ever came easy. Nothing. Sometimes I wonder if my hopes would ever come true… I call it hope coz I think about how much I want it every single day. I like what my parents had. The love that grew between them. Sometimes one would oblige and suffer to make something work for the other. They didn’t have much, ...
It’s one of those rare days where everything seemed good. One of those days, you wish would never end. One of those days, you want to have everyday. One of those days, you would do anything to have and make it work… for always. I sincerely hope…
Absofuckinglutely Fed. Nothing has gone right today. NOTHING! I would rather drown in a pool full of chocolate! GAH! Humans… Can make you… And then break you.. Fed up. Just fed up.