My heart feels like it’s turned into a rock
a bleeding rock, turning my healed blood into gall within its lonely chambers
The thought of him,
the loss and many a thing unrequited
weigh down on my heart,
turning my veins into stone
My heart feels like it’s a lump of snow
spraying splinters of ice with each thud
and this throbbing lump of coldness craves him like the warmth of golden honey.
The frost reaching up my chest,
compressing against the cavity
traveling along my arms, weakening them;
My heart expands with so much space
and it’s cold inside
My lips crave his with such power that I feel the loss against the flesh
Tingling and aching,
they search the void
And coming up empty,
they shrivel back into desolation, defeated-
the hollow infecting my heart
This hurricane, churning my entire being from the inside out
and he never felt none of it, did he?
He’s on the other side of the stone wall,
indifferent and forgetful
as I drown-
I drown alone in the knowledge
that my wishes will only be a feeble plea lost in the loudness of the storm within
Bewildered and lost,
my heart continues its rhythm
as it desperately attempts to lock him out of its corroded gates
but he always seeps in,
blending with my blood,
journeying all over me, making me ache
But in truth, these are just my thoughts
it’s not him for he is gone,
And a thousand prayers won’t bring him back.
Copyrights © Senali Perera 11.11.2015 7:15 p.m.
Blood and Sunrays 