Lil' bit of Zainul...

Preface

It’s not everyday at work one gets enough time to finish a very successful meeting and be independently free in his own cubicle. So much so, reading most of his own past blogs.

Thus, this would be one of my earliest of ones, thinking of republishing it, only gives me goosebumps for the sort of words i have decided to use. But the originality strikes in only when it is of its own.

Words-Unchanged.
Dated-Thursday, 30^th September 2010
Posted By-Zainul Meeadh
Via-http://cynicist.blogspot.com/

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එල ද ඩොන්!!! (Hail the dons!)!!!

You know… There’s an uncountable amount of stress that is going through my mind… I really don’t know what the reason is… but, I know I shouldn't be stressed out!!! I have completed my AL’s!! It’s over now, as they say… But why??? This thing that I thought I was forced to do had come to an end? SO?? Should I worry about it and skip two of my meals? Urgh!!!

I certainly am ambivalent of my feelings, I have finished my papers, and being ready to stare at the world that is waiting for me is as thrilling as the core of thrill could get! Getting up late, working with no tight schedule, hitting couple of road trips which I ve already planned by now, the water fights with guys, the hair do’s for my girly ‘guy friends’ and a never ending to-do-list, is something certainly I don’t want to miss when i think about it, and the pussy magnet classes that I am going to attend, is so exciting to think about too!

The last day of my school life, is fast approaching, rather it already has! And I can only but imagine how I’d feel as I step out of the Grounds of NO: 62, Gregory’s Road, Colombo – 7 named as D. S. Senanayake College, with enough reasons to not to attend any classes ever again, to grow my hair, and the beard as much as I’ve always wanted to. To do the bits I saw my idols doing which my school never let me to! Geee, they never understand teenagers, as a result I am not surprised that  I have felt a lot of urgency to pass my Advanced Levels, and finish this chapter off as soon as possible! But now, the time is here. I can’t believe it approached me this fast. And what do I do now?

No,.,.,!!! barter me the long hair and the soft beard, barter me my idols I looked up to and the gadgets I couldn't take to school! I will trade it all, just to live one more complete year of school! It would be a blatant lie if I say I can remember how it had been like from the very first day to the last, cuz I seriously can’t! But I can remember the first day being the worst day of my life! A bunch of unidentified aliens just like me, wearing the blue square pant and the white shirts, staring at me as if they have discovered the painting of Monalisa! And the worst stare out of all was from someone whom we were obliged to honor as ‘Madame’

But, what I do remember is the first day of my upper school, starting from grade 6! I was dying to experience all the new and exciting things that awaited me. It was a complete different world from the primary school which we used to know. From the sports to extra-curricular, a fancy new world awaited. The daily routine of going to school and coming back home took a nice turn. The by-default-friends were dropped; we chose our own-click. Life, got a bit closer to heart, and then came the genuine laughter, joy, aathal, fun, happiness and all those things you could ask the life to teach you. Just as to many other kids, I learnt life more than I studied my curriculum, being an utter academic failure, I can’t explain much. But in life, I was not a failure! From a minion head to a thoughtful leader, I was blessed to be under the best of aiya’s, teachers, and coaches! I even learnt to share my meal with the guy next to me, which guy next to me eventually turned out to be the whole class. With the great exception of that posh kid who sits at the front row saying ‘eeya’

The world, am so eagerly waiting to get in to, might not be the greatest of places that would welcome me! I know that for one! Not as much as this school has welcomed me, and the not-so-affluent-few like me! I am a part of the minority to start it off with, but there was hardly any reference to any minority as a minority. In all of my classes, kumara and kumar meant the same and Vishan and Jihan would still mean the same! Religion was no fence; neither to development nor to stupidity! As the lyric of the national anthem goes ‘එක මවකගෙ දරු කැල බැවිනා ‘(as children of the same mother) we moved together!

Life, as we know comes to an end or should come to an end, for some, it’s a full stop for others it’s a comma, the days of joy that seemed never ending has finally come to an end, I was the head of nothing at most of the times, but, she taught me, to be the greatest in what I did! She taught me to bluff! She showed me to be the first of everything I’ve ever done, might not be in the numerical order at times, but at heart, I was the first! She taught me to be independent, eventually as a debater I was, she taught me to lie, she taught me to convince others of my lies, and for that she taught me to lie to myself, she proved me, there’s nothing impossible, and I can reach wide for the impossibilities, she paved me the way for my future, not just by sitting in the class for 8 boring periods but also by making me to ‘අයිස් ගහන්න’ in my free periods. By making me to do things which otherwise I’d have never chosen to do.

As Senel named the school, and I’d agree with it, just as Alicia Keys named New York, DS, was the concrete jungle made out of dreams! A whole world of dreams, a world of fantasies, there was nothing that you couldn't do, the broken chairs of the classes inspired us, the trophies we won for school, and the trophies others brought to her made us feel brand new, it made us reach the next level, gave us a fantasy world to live, made our lives the best any one could ever make!

As any other chapter in life comes to an end, yes, this has too, and yes, this too (with the exception of the beautiful-llest chapter of my life) is definitely one of the beautiful ones.

Thus, it’s adieus!! Adieus DS, Viva la Vida DS!!
As we proudly screamed always…
එල ද ඩොන්!!! (Hail the dons!)!!!