I need a change!
Yes I have been thinking it, worrying about it, pondering over it, talking about it…but the one thing I havent done is to get off my ass and do something about it!!! I need a change! I need change! And I need one NOW!
Got my 30th bday approaching in 6 months and I am freaking out. This year was supposed to be my year of enlightenment, the year of possibilities…the year of new things…or at least where I succeeded in redefining my life and what I want from it….but guess what…7 months have almost passed by and I have done nothing, zilch, nada….it does not feel good…i dont like this….but i dont know what to do!
I have a job…a ‘good’ one in lankan terms I guess and I know I have so much to be thankful for, and believe me I am..I am thankful every day for all of the good things in my life….but I want a job that Im passionate about…something that makes me feel or care…I think I need to be in hr or some form of psychology….but I dont know how to get there…do i give up this job and start from the beginning in a new field….i cant exactly afford to do that ….do i start studying something new…yes, that seems to be more feasible….
Another thing I felt I really needed to do is get involved…right now I dont do much apart from work , home, work home…….I would love to get involved with volunteering in some form…not at a desk doing admin things…but working with children or elders…I have looked in the papers and online but cant seem to find any volunteer opportunities…although Im sure sri lanka must have loads? If anyone reading this knows of any – please do let me know?
When I was 21 – I thought Id have it all sorted and settled by the time I hit 26; who could have thought I would get it so wrong! Im 29 now, and outwardly successful but feel like Im missing a really big part of the puzzle. The killer is – i dont even know which piece I am missing…is this normal ? Do other people feel this way too? My brain tells me there must be other people out there who are going through the same thing. But everywhere I go I just seem to see young single people who are so happy with their lives and dont seem to want for anything. I know that probably is not true – and at least a few of them must be as messed up inside as I am…..
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Good to see you write again or i’ve not been getting ur posts 😛
Yes everyone keeps searching for somethin, that one missing piece of the puzzle or the entire puzzle itself.. 🙂 im 25 n i thought i’d have my life figured out when in 23, but hell no.. im no where close to even begin to search for tht missing piece….
or is this whole search a social pressure we impose on ourselves…? to be SOMEONE, why cant be we be nobody?
thanks lost soul – good to know ive been missed: )
When I was 25 – I thought I had the best life ever….and it seems like it all went downhill from there cos i got too complacent and happy with myself…..you still have loads of time to find that puzzle….!
Haha EVERYONE is messed up, so you don’t feel bad about that 🙂
It gives you more character anyway.
You seem to have figured out what sort of change you want- to study something. As for volunteer work, there are several organisations here… Though I can’t seem to recall any of them off the top of my head…sorry… But if you google it up, you might find something?
We ALL feel this way! So trust me you’re not alone. Sometimes I wonder if that missing piece will always be there, like it’s human nature to never be content. Just try living in the present, or changing something small, like start a new workout or pain the colour of your bedroom walls a different colour 🙂