Bored, bored, bored

Almost 3 months past my 30th birthday  – and what have I achieved? Nothing much… 😦 I am bored bored bored bored.

Started the year off with loads of hope – potential promotion at work, a friend of a friend who was going to be introduced to me and was supposed to be perfect for me; and the prospect of volunteering.

The promotion – was told last week that althought I had been promised certain things, it wasnt going to happen now and if it all the promotion did happen, it would be towards the end of this year or even next year.  This, despite the fact that I was performiong higher than expected in my new role and there was no valid reason for me not to get it.

The guy – he is a good friend of a friend of mine who thought we would be perfect for each other. We were introduced online, exchanged a couple of mails and then finally met up.  I did not have any expectations and since I tend to be rather cynical about this kind of thing – was expecting to hate the guy  – but instead I quite liked him and had a really interesting conversation. The niest thing was that he even called half hour after we left to check if I got home safe. Which totally made me think he liked me too.  But then – complete silence….so being a woman of  this age, I initiated a text  telling him I had fun and if he felt the same, we shoudl meet again….he repleid back immediately saying the same and how much fun he had…but he also said he was going to be busy for the enxt couple of weeks…and absolutely no news since then 😦 😦

So that absolutely SUCKS…..I have never been the kind of woman who falls for every man she meets… and in fact, have not liked any man i met in the past 2 years.  But this guy i liked and he is not cute or anything – he just seemed like a nice person and speaks my language and seemed like someone I could click with…but he doesnt seem to like me….how ****ED UP is that!!!!!

So glad I have this space – cos I am usually supposed to be the positive energetic one and cant really tell my friends how alone and defeated I feel….