Here i am once again
discouraged and deranged
feeling the water and the pain
looking out in the rain.

Finding anything but rest,
my soul wonders and doubts
if i can ever withstand the test
and will ever find happiness

Old habits,new ones,
die hard, never some.
At times i even wish i could
leave it all behind and run.

I'm alone, all alone
all i do is mope and moan.
when past years come to mind
all i can do is look back and groan.