Tuesday, September 23, 2008

A page from my diary.....

Come on.....step in to my mind.....do you see? this is me...and this is my world....i don't expect you to understand...after all it isn't that simple....I know....I know you wish that it WAS that simple....do you feel that? that's joy....it sucks you in...a roller coaster ride...breaths you in....like love......of course I give into it...I laugh at everything that says life is short....what does it mean? my life is not lived in years. months, days or hours....but seconds....short is not a number....it's an eternity of the uncountable....

peace is a luxury....no....it WAS a luxury....now it's an addiction....it's in every cell every nuance of my existence....like the perfect wine....it's perfection achieved with time...peace.... is twirling and twirling in a lonely living room running back an year with each twirl....back to a childhood of ruffles and bows....

can you smell that? that's apples and berries.....cinnamon and lime....honey and roses...reminding me of a place I left behind....a place I run away from....a place I always end up running to....

it's the heart that skip skip skips a few beats and starts with a new life....there's no fear in this place....no dread... no darkness....

Come walk into my mind.... I am through fighting...this is me giving in....the dawn had touched my cheek....it's pretty...orange and blue and yellow....i am a part of that painting...drawn with the pastels of nature.... I am reluctantly but surely home....

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