Molotov

Orange Gerberas
loving youhas too often beena lessonin the many waysthe human heartcan bruisesometimes in the tender shadesof ripening fruitsometimes like a war that I will lose

terrorism

Orange Gerberas
you have crossed borders dismissing sanctitysurmounted barricades once unassailableto lay at my feet an explosive giftlove is too often a bulletI am left shaking in anger, engulfed in guiltwhen I have done nothing but listen, unwittingly,to a confession I never saw cominglove is a violation of territorial integrityyou are a separatist movementaiming your guns right at my headan attempt to ...

meantime

Orange Gerberas
you are dust in your gravesand and dirtI am warm in my bedI never thought I could bear it; to think of youconsumed by wormsbut here I amalive and wellsometimes even happy

home, abandoned

Orange Gerberas
I always believedI would remain a placeyou call homeno matterwhere you wentor with whomnow I find myselfstanding on the shorestaring at an empty seathe sun is settingI have no morereasons left to smile

hunger

Orange Gerberas
I have known what it isto starve; I have notforgottenbut to be without your loveis a hunger gnawingat my very bonesI sit here listening;let it consume everythinginside me

north star

Orange Gerberas
on the other side of the worldyou hold me in your heart as home, your north starI sit here hoping you never returnI once held your name so precious in my mouth, saying it only with tendernessit took me three tries to remember it todayhow cold, to love a woman like mewho only loved you once

dancing lights

Orange Gerberas
another new dayI find myself freezing in another airport loungeface against the cold glasswatching the endless lights dancing in the distancethey warm the heart - flickering, fading, flaring up again...I place my wishes for you on them - love, joy, peace, time, space, bliss...somewhere a voice is callingbreaking through the memoriesit's time now to fly away again.

wait until she leaves

Orange Gerberas
wait until she leaves youwhen you wake up to a life drenched in grief, limbs heavyher scent still on your skinthe coloured-everything-and-then-left ache of her unloving, the absent presence of hereverywhere, every minute, her laughter, her warmthher throaty, brazen whispers wait until you wake up feeling her hands on you and thenremember she is gonethe echoing emptinesswhen the once-abundant waterfall ...

omission V

Orange Gerberas
another day of 3 a.m. sadnesswaiting for you with myheart in my mouththis silence ischoking me

omission IV

Orange Gerberas
not even this late sunsetenveloping me in golden lightcan melt this knife of iceyou stabbed me withso many times last night

omission III

Orange Gerberas
your careless wordsfalling so effortlesslyfrom those fingersthose careless handsso deftly breakingmy heart apartso blinded by youI just didn't seethat knife

omission II

Orange Gerberas
funny how you can break a heartwithout ever laying a fingeron the one who loves

omission I

Orange Gerberas
Tonight's going to be another night Of lying on the ground at 3 amBut tonight I won't wonder Where you are

precipice II

Orange Gerberas
you are a precipiceand I like to live a little too dangerouslyrushing headlongwhen I see the fallshattering ecstasysuch delicious violencecolour me satedwhen blood is drawn

numbers

Orange Gerberas
the numbers can't go wrongyou said, but I know how they lieevery hour of silence stretchesinto infinity whenyou leave

tunnel vision

Orange Gerberas
today I am that girl on the trainred notebook, blue penscribbling your namedo you even knowI want to sink my teethinto the side of your palmdo you even know youhold my heart in those hands

trust

Orange Gerberas
people are not to be trustedyou saidespecially not in this cityoh babydon't trust mein any city