we barely knew each other, but lying next to you drunk with christmas cheer and wine… and my first kiss barely moments ago. My christmas was made. You were the icing on the cake. and we went to bed.. together, not a second thought in our heads. I didn’t even know it would be second best to when the lights ...

I remember you. I remember the beauty in your eyes and your soul, I remember the smile, I remember your heart, I remember what I wanted to protect. I remember your big strong hands, your fair skin, marked by your clumsiness and pride. I remember your head it’s wiry curled crown. I remember all that you were and all that ...

Growing up… I guess we all fall into an eager expectancy or peer pressured situation of dating/courtship, willing or unwilling infatuations and sickening immature expressions of lust parading as love. Also, popular culture and the media doesn’t necessarily support the idea that pre-teen human beings can and should be single in this pivotal stage of confusing physical, mental and emotional ...

He surprised me. if you are reading this, my wonder… you surprised me like a warmth of a match in the winter of my heart, a hearth that didn’t know fire, or the start of it, like now. Where did that.. how did you. how? I wonder.. my wonderful surprise. I thank the winds that led you to me. That ...

What’s Left of You I remember you. I remember the beauty in your eyes and your soul, I remember the smile, I remember your heart, I remember what I wanted to protect. I remember your big strong hands, your fair skin, marked by your clumsiness and pride. I remember your head it’s wiry curled crown. I remember all that you were and all ...

You asked me what I want for my birthday… I tried to hide how incredulous that made me, but with every single time you asked me it was just hurtful. Painful. Disgraceful. You’d think for you, but we’re playing this game where this meant everything for me, and nothing to you… so it’s just disgraceful for me. Disgraceful that I ...

that’s exactly what it feels like. I saw the signs. My friends told me, my mentors told me. My mother even took your side. I’d like to look back on all the good times, all the fun, all the joy you inspired, but somehow some way, it seems like you go the extra mile to … to just prove to me, ...

It’s like I don’t know how to be alone. Here I am sitting with you in the same room, being your annoying chatty self, annoying me with how you behave like nothings changed. It fucking has. And all I want is for you to leave. I just want you to walk out of here with your head down, like you ...

My friends call me the unicorn. I celebrated it, I wore it like a badge. I loved it. Unicorns are magical, beautiful and rare. But what do you do when your the only unicorn in this side of the forest. I’ve always been different. I had beliefs about love and relationships when I was in my teens, rigid beliefs. I ...

I told myself not to think about that. I told myself to focus on the now. The here and now when you were with me, in my house, seated next to me, knee to knee, my fingers just drawn to play with your cute curly hair as you droned on about your silly little obsessions like iphone this, ebay that, ...

Fix You Is it that I cared too much? Is it that I never loved? I just saw you.. and saw the beauty within you fighting for a chance, strength looking for a foothold, innocence that needed protection. I wanted to be.. everything you ever needed. At first just a friend, but that’s all I ever wanted to be… everything. I ...

I keep finding myself sleeping pressed against the wall on the right side of a double bed I’ve spent most of my life sleeping on, indiscriminately. I was once even accused of sleeping on it like I accidentally fell off a tall building and onto it, or with my extra long legs tucked into that comfortable gap in the mattress ...

It ends They keep asking me am I okay.. and I can’t lie, I am okay. But faber drive… faber drive is keeping me up late at night today. am i the fool, am i a victim I’d rather know, you’d rather kiss her, good night, tonight, I’m blinded i try, i tried is this the way, is this the way, it ...

Does it matter He wakes up early… blame it on a school boarding upbringing. But somehow someway.. I just instinctually know when it’s a message from him. It would come early, sometimes expecting me to see it first thing in the morning a few hours later on my phone/whatsapp or fb, but yesterday… things were different. I was having trouble sleeping after ...

Demisexuality and My Cliché I knew he was trouble when he walked in, last year. I saw his cute doe eyed face and just knew that pudgy burgher boy was trouble. Even though he’s evened out now, become fitter now. Become a man now. A man that makes my leather jacket look even better when he wears it around. I like how my ...

Amas Veritas His shoe size will be 11.5″. He’ll always ship ‘Sterek’ zealously. He will use big English words even I’ve never heard of. He will have warm eyes, and beautiful hands that always find their way towards mine. His favorite Ice Cream flavor with be Vanilla pure, with nuts. He will think in song, and dance instead of walk. He will kiss ...

Private Romeo MERCUTIO You are a lover; borrow Cupid’s wings, And soar with them above a common bound.  ROMEO I am too sore enpierced with his shaft To soar with his light feathers, and so bound, I cannot bound a pitch above dull woe: Under love’s heavy burden do I sink. MERCUTIO And, to sink in it, should you burden love; Too ...

You are Pain You are pain, a bitter sweet, a silly gain, to know you are here with me, but never will be, forever mine, or only for a time, a fleeting glance, a one sided romance, you are pain, you could be, the dream that unites a thousand dreams, but you are pain, you will know my name, but never say ...

Life is For the Living Since 2010, the world is abuzz with the rise in suicide by gay teens, one of them especially because he was outed to his peers in the most compromising of ways.  I’m not surprised, even I gotta admit I had flirted with the idea a couple of times when the bullying had been particularly bad, or if I had yet another religious discussion ...

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